I am usually a very upbeat person...very optimistic and joyful. But I have to admit that this past week, I have had a hard time finding joy. I know it's just a little funk and I am snapping out of it and doing much better. There are going to be times in our lives when things don't always feel like roses...more like thorns! I don't have any one particular reason for this lack of joy. I have a great life...a fabulous husband...incredible kids...a loving Savior...a home...food on the table...friendships...it's just me - my own little weirdness going on! We have all gone through it at one time or another...I know I am not alone. During times like this, I just continue to look UP and seek joy from my Lord...the one true source of what seems to be unattainable sometimes. He is the one that can fill me up with I can't seem to do so. He is the one that will just let me cry for what seems to be no reason. He is the one that will just let me be as I work through whatever it is.
Like I said, I am doing much better...recognizing that the 'funks' I experience are times of growing and learning and evaluating. Sometimes painful, but a good pain...you know what I mean? What is really cool to see is how the Lord reminds me of the joys in my life...reminds me of the smallest things that just make my heart smile. This past week, Zachary's little preschool class made all kinds of cute little valentiney things...sadly, my older kids don't bring home cutesy stuff anymore... The first 'installment' of these treasures from Zachary came in the mail.
My sweet little mister sent us a love note!
Then he came home with this little treasure!
(outside) (inside)
The final gift of the week was this beautiful card that made
Ken and I both cry!
(here is what is written in the heart)
My Hand Print
February 14, 2010
Sometimes you get discouraged
because I am so small
and always leave my finger prints
on furniture and wall.
but everyday I'm growing up
and soon I'll be so tall, that all those little hand prints
will be difficult to recall
so here's a current hand print
that you can put away
you'll know just how my fingers looked
this year for Valentine's Day!
I'll give you a moment to wipe your eyes....
The joy that we often lack, for whatever reason...prayerfully, like me, is just momentary...just a brief time of blah. When I am given the reminder, from my Savior, the incredible blessings He has given me...I find it hard to stay in my 'blah' state for too long. My precious little man, so innocent and sweet, just loves me...just because I am his mommy and that's all! That is how my God loves me. Just because I am his child...He loves me for me and all my flaws...loves me in spite of my lack of joy at times...He loves me no matter what! For that alone, joy can overflow and be stored up for the times when I don't feel it, right?
Today, I am joyful and I thank the Lord for it!
There is a song that has come to mind for me today...
There is joy in the Lord
There is love in His spirit
There is hope in the knowledge of Him
There's a fountain that flows
Like a river from heaven
Abounding in love to my soul
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Habakkuk 3:18
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