Do You Blame HIM?

We all have our stories.  The ones that set us on our life journey. Some better than others.  Some sadder than others.  Some we want to forget or those that, when remembered, bring us joy!  Maybe, like my own, yours is a mixture of both.

There are things in life that we can honestly say, we didn't ask for.  Other things we experienced because we made a choice to do so.  Either way, what we do with the outcome is always our choice.   We move on...

Moving on doesn't mean we forget...doesn't mean we don't still feel hurt...we move on to the next journey that God has for us.  We move forward only stronger.

There are times when I find myself thinking back on my life...not to dwell on the hard times...not to feel sorry for myself...I do so, because I am reminded of how good God has been to me.  I can honestly say, that through all the pain I have endured...whether by my own choices or not...it's all ok!  I believe that God allows us to make choices, he allows pain and difficult tiimes in our life, so we can turn to Him and we can grow in our relationship with Him and in our own character.

I can't remember a time...not one...where I blamed God for any of it.  Even as a little girl, when I didn't have the ablility to understand why my mother chose to abuse drugs, I remember crying out to the Lord, for comfort...for help...but never did I blame him.  Even as a 16 year old girl, lost in her existence, pregnant and scared...I didn't blame God.  Even during the years, as a single mother, strugglinng to raise my son and work and go to school...times when I thought I was truly alone...I know I wasn't!  Even during the past 10 years, since I married my fabulous husband, when things have been hard...I never blamed God!  He has been the ONLY constant in my life...the ONLY one who never left me...never dissappointed me...never hurt me...never did He stop loving me...NEVER!  When I think about it, I am in awe...amazed at how much God loves us.  

I do not write any of this to have a pity party.  I decided years ago that my life was not my own.  The Lord has done miracles with my messes, so I don't feel it is right to keep it to myself.  I feel as though we have no right to blame God.  Who am I to question Him?  If I hadn't gone through the things that I did in my life, where would I be today?  Who would I be?  I am so thankful for my life...then and now...because it has been His plan all along.  To bring me to this place in my life where ALL the glory is HIS!  I take credit for none of it.

Some may look at my life now and say, but you are just a housewife...just a mom...just PTA mom...just this or NOT that...yep!  That's right!  My simple little life.  All the blessings I have right now...my unbelievable husband, my children...the 3 I gave birth to and the 3 that God has allowed me to love as my own...my faith, my friendships!  It may be, not so much to some, but it is everything to me!  So, for who I am today, because of where God had me yesterday, I can only be thankful!!